Pants

After almost a week of being snowed in, I was finally able to make it to the gym this morning. It was sooooo nice!!! I did work out at home last week, but for whatever reason aerobics just isn't effective enough for me to lose weight. I can maintain, but not lose, so I am very excited to be able to get out and to the gym again. Anyway, moving on to my title, to understand that little story though, I need to preface it with a little story from my early married life. We I met my husband, I weighed about 110 pounds and wore a size 2. Six weeks before we got married I went on birth control (I was not interested in ever having kids), so because I didn't want to worry about the pill daily I went on Depo. Now this was all before I discovered my love of food. I started to really gain weight and it didn't matter how much I exercised. I was pretty active, I was taking 3 gym classes in college plus my husband and I did a lot of hiking (we went backpacking for part of our honeymoon) and I didn't eat much back then. Apparently my body didn't get the message and I gained 50 pounds in 6 months. My husband didn't really know how to deal with me because I would stand in front of my full length mirror and just be in tears trying to put on my clothes that had fit not so long ago and now I couldn't zip (those that know me know that I don't cry, they call me heartless). So finally he decided he couldn't take it anymore and removed my mirror, broke it in half and threw it in our dumpster. He has since forbid me to ever own another full length mirror. He told me that he didn't care if I had gained weight that he still thought I looked good. So 12 years later, I still do not own a full length mirror. Now to my more recent story, over Christmas break I had a gift card to Aeropostle and decided that while we were in the area I would run into the store and use it. My husband, 5 kids and my dad were all waiting in the car, so I just found a few things and bought them without trying them on. One of them was a size 9/10 jeans. I was sure they weren't going to fit, but since my 12's were getting too big, I figured it wouldn't be too long. I was pleasantly surprised when I put them on and they did actually fit. So I absolutely love my trendy new jeans, but again I do not own a full length mirror, so in the past anytime I walk by a big mirror or see a picture of me, I am like, I didn't realize I looked that bad. So we were at the furniture store looking around and we walked past all of the standing mirrors, I really didn't want to look because I knew if I didn't like what I saw in the mirror, I would never wear my favorite new pants again, but of course I couldn't keep from taking a peak, and I was so surprised to see myself in a real mirror, and not be horrified at how I looked. I was sure it was just how they had the mirror angled, but they all showed the same thing. It was so nice to actually look in the mirror and not be embarrassed. So anyway how this all ties together was we brought home the pamphlet for the bedroom set we are looking at and one of the pieces is a full length mirror and my husband finally decided that I am happy enough with how I am starting to look, that he is OK with me having another mirror. Hopefully he doesn't read this because I must also tell another story about him, and this one will embarrass him. We were having a good time watching the Patriots lose yesterday and they of course showed the cheerleaders, and he says to me those cheerleaders are kind of chunky. And for some reason a few minutes later he told me, well some of them are the same size as you. I looked at him and was like you know you just complimented me and insulted me all in the same sentence? He totally didn't realize what he had just done, luckily for him it wasn't last week, and I found it funny rather than insulting. Anyway, I know this was a long post, but I decided to start being a little bit more personal and post the good things and not just the frustrating things.